Vit Bien. Rit Souvent. Aime Beaucoup.

 Two papers down, one more to go.

Beer and paper writing don't go hand in hand when you haven't slept more than three hours a night this week.

So sleepy....

Definitely was "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen." 

Setting:
-clean apartment
-candles 
-a good movie or music playing

Main course:
 -Lemon pesto baked salmon
- Seasoned brown rice with sauteed mushrooms
-Steamed vegetables

Beverage:
-Pinot Noir or sparking cider
-or water with lemon because I'm fancy haha

Dessert:
-White chocolate raspberry swirl cheesecake with an Oreo crust

then presents! Yay! This is what I've been planning for the past few days. I really hope I can find the right present for him...at least the one I've been thinking of. 


happy birthday boyfriend <3

So it's been awhile. I'm not sure who even bothers to read this anymore, but here goes. I really liked Lori's bullet point entry so here's mine.

-i'm not graduating this spring like everyone else is.  i'm pretty disgusted with myself that I have another year of school left due to my poor choices. way to go lien.
-my allergies are SO bad right now I feel like my nose is slowly dripping off my face and my eyes are all watery and gross.
-I'm pretty much unoffically engaged. I have a goregous ring that's perfect for me. I love him. He loves me. I'm incredibly happy.
- all but oh, two of my friends hate him. but i could care less. true friends suck it up and deal with him if i'm happy. i think they might even think i'm not serious about him. as though this is just another "lien thing" where I just jump blindly into things.
-this summer is going to be busy but I'm excited for it. I'm excited for camping most of all.
-i have discovered again that some friends really aren't my friends. Good for them for being all lame, but they'll miss me when i'm gone.
-my cousin had a baby girl around 4am this morning. 8 pounds of pure beauty. i can't wait to meet her.
-i'm excited to look for a new apartment. I get to decorate and start with a clean slate.

annd that's it pretty much.

( more more more! )


hi hi

People complain about how difficult it is to find a boyfriend or girlfriend. They say for some unknown reason, they aren't able to meet the right people or they never get approached by people. Then come the complaints about how they hate being single or they're jealous of seeing happy couples around them.

To be honest, I'm one of those people. As much as I hate to admit it, I just can't help but feel this way. I tend to think of myself as being a late bloomer. I didn't date in high school like everyone else. I didn't get my first official kiss until the first year of college. My first real relationship wasn't until my third year of college. I can honestly say I've had two real relationships in my life. One in which broke my heart but I was in love. So many of my friends are engaged, married, seriously in love, or even with kids already. I'm starting to feel like I will always be the late bloomer of the group. It's as though my luck has never gotten me anywhere.

I know what I want in my life. I want to: finish school, move to the east coast, be a social worker, fall in love and have it returned, see the world, raise a family, be happy. I would love to have someone to share that with me. Someone to be by my side when things go amazingly well...and for the times when the world seems to crumble at my feet.

I want him to be sweet, sincere. Outgoing and determined. Strong willed and strong minded. I want him to have an open heart to love unconditionally. To accept me for all of my flaws and to have his own flaws for me to love. Someone to hold me when I'm sad and to make me laugh until tears turn from sadness to those of joy. I want someone to be there to make me smile. I don't need the movie star good looks or the riches. I need a man with a kind heart.

I don't think I ask for too much. I understand that things happen when they're supposed to. Don't go looking for it, it will find you. Those sayings are common but as much as I want to just be patient, sometimes it becomes to difficult. I thought I had it all at one point and in another instance, I lost it. I wish fate would stop playing games. I deserve to be happy.

So really, is it that hard to meet someone? Or is it our fault? Perhaps we are so focused on finding the perfect someone that we're closing ourselves off from the people who are around us every day. Our standards are too high and I think it's starting to result in the wrong people getting together.

001. Real name → Lien T. Le
002. Nickname(s)→ Duckie, Panda [boo], Half-Pint
003. Status --> single
004. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Beaver Acres
007. Middle School → Five Oaks
008. High School → Aloha High School
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → a little shorter than medium.
012. Loud or Quiet → Quiet.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Camera
015. Health freak → Sometimes.
016. Drink or Smoke? → drink
017. Do you have any piercings? Yes
020. Tattoos → yes

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → ears
024. First best friend → Ashley Stone I think.
025. First award → Perfect attendance
026. First crush → Little adorable boy named Lyle in kindergarten.
027. First pet → Fish
028. First big vacation → Vegas.
030. First big birthday → that I remember? probably in the 2nd or 3rd grade.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing.
050. Drinking → Green tea
052. I'm about to → get back to my paper...hopefully.
053. Listening to → an episode of NCIS
054. Plans for today → finish my paper, go to bed.
055. Waiting for → The sunshine to come back

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Absolutely.
059. Want to get married? → Yes!
060. Careers in mind → social worker.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes? → eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms?→ arms
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive.
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → nope but I'm ripped contacts and broken my glasses before.
081. Ran away from home → nope
082. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → no
083. Killed somebody → no
084. Broken someone's heart → yes
085. Been arrested → nope
087. Cried when someone died → yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → for the most part
090. Miracles → yes
091. Love at first sight → never.
092. Heaven → no
093. Santa Claus →no
094. Sex on the first date → if the mood permits. to each their own!
095. Kiss on the first date → if the mood permits.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now-> no
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → not really
099. Do you believe in God → i believer there is a higher being but i'm not sure who/what they are.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag at least 10 people.→ whatever.

There is something to be said about being held in the arms of the one you care about. Whether it's a quick hug or a deep embrace. Whether if it's in public in broad daylight or in the privacy of your own home. There is that sense of security I receive from being held by my significant other. I'm by no means an entirely dependent person. I thrive on having my independence but I honestly believe that some things are better shared with someone else.

Cuddling is one of my favorite past times when I'm in a relationship with someone primarily because it makes me feel safe and protected. When I'm in their arms, I honestly feel like nothing bad could happen to me or anywhere in the world. Time seems to stop- even if it's just for that moment. I'm there with the person I want to be with and I savor every bit of warmth; every inhale and exhale; and all of my problems slowly evaporate from my mind.

In that one moment, it's just the two of us. We are the only two people that matter and being there with each other is the only thing that is relevant in life. That is the perfect moment. And that perfect moment is exactly what I'm missing in my life. It hurts a little inside knowing that when I long for such an emotion, I can't readily have it. It makes me want my boyfriend more and more each day. I long for someone to fall asleep with and wake up next to. Someone to cuddle with and keep me warm at night. Someone to think I'm special regardless of what I do or how I look.

I want that perfect moment back in my life.

I hate that I'm often "too nice" to deal with people. Obviously by being so nice, people walk all over me. I wish I could just be that bitch I know I can be. Actually I know I am one but I don't voice it. How stupid is that? I'm tired to people not picking up the slack for things whether it's in class or just in life. I know it's good to be a nice person but I think being selfish might actually get me somewhere with certain people. Maybe I need to be blunt about the things I say and not care how it makes me people feel. Oh and then take it back like it didn't offend them. What the fuck?

I wish people could just magically pick up on my moods and leave me alone. 15 more days until I escape to sunny California. I am SO ready and it's going to be an amazing weekend. I just know it. What would be better than running off to another state to spend time with someone who cares about me? A weekend of lovey dovey goodness. I can't wait.

This is me NOT studying for a midterm I have in a little over an hour. Um I am so screwed. I also have a midterm on Friday and one next week on Tuesday. Then I have a paper due on the 13th. Valentine's Day is coming up. I get to go see Friday the 13th. Yeah I know, I'm pretty twisted. But I love it. I really wish I made plans to see the Boyfriend that weekend but what can you do. Instead when I do see him, it'll be our one month. Yay! Apparently if we make it through his deployment we'll be half way to our engagement. Haha. If only you guys knew.


Question: Would you be surprised if I came back one weekend and announced that I was married? Eloping for the win!

so today I went to class and then drove jackie back to tigard. Then met sabrina for dinner and hung out for a little while. rediscovered my love for travel sized products. sort of got stood up by melissa- which i'm still irked about. then proceeded to drive back to corvallis. there was a lot of caffeine involved to make sure i didn't crash and die. and now i can't CAN'T sleep. Yes, it's 5 in the morning. I wonder if there are any cartoons on...........


1. What is your occupation right now? Discontent college student.
2. What are the color of your socks right now? I'm not wearing any.
3. What are you listening to right now? ESPN: NBA podcast
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Sushi
5. Can you drive a stick shift? I haven't tried...
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Boyfriend.
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I stole this.
8. How old are you today? 22
9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? NBA games.
10. What is your favorite drink? Fruit Smoothies.
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yup. Apparently bottle blond turns my hair a reddish color.
12. Favorite food? Sushi or veggie pizza.
13. What is the last movie you watched? My Bloody Valentine in 3-D haha
14. Favorite day of the year? My birthday.
15. How do you vent anger? um. It depends on how angry I am
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Probably my Barbies.
17. What is your favorite season? A toss up between summer and Winter.
18. Cherries or Blueberries? frozen blueberries
19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? Nope
20. What is your favorite candy? Hersey's cookies and cream if I want chocolate or Mike and Ike's Tropic flavor.
21. Favorite Vacation Spot? Anywhere near the ocean.
22. Living arrangements? apartment.
23. What did you do last night? phone date with the boyfriend. We wanted to be "together" at midnight for his birthday. =]
24. What are you most afraid of? birds and losing those who mean the most to me.
25. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? spicy garden burgers.
26. Favorite dog breed? west terriers.
27. Favorite day of the week? saturday
28. How many states have you lived in? just oregon
29. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds...
30. What is your favorite flower? white roses.

Happy Lunar New Year! =]


I called my dad last night near midnight to do the traditional new year well wishes. I think my dad was surprised to hear from me. That kind of caused a twinge of guilt in my heart. I wonder if he's afraid I'm going to be that kid who never comes home again. Anyway I have to remember to call mom later today because she was already sleeping when I called last night. There are a few things I'm praying for this new year and two of them have to do with the health of my loved ones. The last few months was pretty brutal for my Mom and sister. So here's to the brand new year and nothing but good health and happiness.

So far in 2008, according to the American new year, I have found myself to be doing quite well. School is doing well...at least as well as it could be. The reading is starting to get to me, but whatever. I have my great friends in my life. No arguments, no drama. I met an amazing guy and before I knew it, we're officially dating. There are a lot of circumstances that may make an outsider question why we're together, but I'm not one to question "what if's" in relationships. I refuse to. Whether this ends well or horribly, at least we're blissfully happy now.

Things are going great right now but it doesn't mean I'm not constantly fighting to keep things that way. Regardless of how good things are now, there's always room for improvement. <3

Enjoy the sunshine!

I am officially rocking gray contacts as of this morning. I'm not sure how I feel about them yet. My room mate said they looked good creepy. or something along the lines of that. No one made a comment about them. We'll see how it goes. Even if I end up not liking the color, I still have 6 months of them left. Haha....

In other news, this is the happiest I've been since Seth left me. I'm so happy I could shout it from the roof top. And I just can't stop smiling.

Usually when I tell people what I'm studying school, they tend to get a weird look on their faces. For those who don't know, I'm currently working on my B.S in psychology with a sociology minor. I'm hoping to be a social worker. Someone has to help those kids, right? Anyway, when I tell people I'm a psychology student they respond with something along the lines of, " Oh! Well I'll just stop talking now!" or "Wow, so you're probably breaking me down right now." It's so annoying. I normally don't start "breaking" down someone until they say something like that to me. The thought never crosses my mind! I just meet people and talk to them like a normal person! That's the response I get from people until today.

I sat by this guy in class this morning and we were discussing the quiz we were going to take in class that day. It was still early so I guess he felt the need to make some small talk with me. He inquired about my major and I told him, bracing for the ever so hated response. But he surprised me...

Him: "Oh that's nice! It's good to know my future wife is smart." Cue smile.

Me: ....."what?"


My professor walked in right after that and we didn't talk again.

And there's someone by my side...

I am meant to be on the East Coast. Seriously. The way that things would out for me all point to this fact. My heart belongs to the East coast. This is the second time something like this has happened. I don't know what I'm getting myself into but if I don't leap head first into this, well, I know I will regret it. I can't let my past dictate how I live my life in the present and the future. I know I can't close myself off from feeling anymore.

Seth broke my heart but he didn't kill me. I refuse to let him have the last word. I'm stronger than what he gives me credit for. I will not give up on finding the right guy for me. I deserve to be happy. The tomorrow is always better. I will always meet better people. Have better experiences. Yes, I know there will be many bad moments, but I will get through them. And the people who choose to stay with me are the only ones who matter.

I'm young and this is the time to take things into my own hands. I have nothing holding me back so this is it. I'm jumping into this head first. And it's up to me to determine if I sink or swim.


Peace. Love.

Guess what I got in the mail today?




Looks like I don't need him, anyway. I finally get to go to my first Blazers game. My first NBA game. And as much as I wanted to go with him, I'd much rather go with my girls. One step closer to being blissfully happy.

I should not be allowed to sit by myself and think. My mind always wanders to the bad things. The things that I should let go. When will I ever learn?

My annual review that I write is usually posted, but the one I wrote this year isn't live journal appropriate. So here's something I took from Sarah.

Instructions: Take the first sentence from your first post of each month of 2008 and post them. This is your year in review.

January
So basically 2008 has been off to a sprint.

February
Damn, Alica Keys knows how to lay it all out there.

March
One of my biggest pet peeves is of people who are never straight up about what they are thinking or doing.

April
Today was an absolutely beautiful day!

May
Do you ever stop and think about how different your life would have been if you made different decisions in life?

June
So I'm really horrible at updating here mostly because of a combination of being busy and not really having the will to write about everything.

July
I basically did nothing.

August
So this whole not having a set schedule or something to do everyday is starting to eat away at me.

September
You can never tell how much a person is hurting just by looking at them.

October
Sometimes it's not about what the mind wants.

November
Halloween was amazing.

December
I miss you.

I never thought I would be in this place again. I thought I was finally saved.

Apparently when I get my heart broken, I do two things:

1.) consume massive amounts of chocolates. But only if given to me by others. I baked a ton this break and barely ate any of it. On the other hand, Sabrina and Melissa gave me a TON of candy for Christmas...Mmm chocolate...I even had a dream last night that I was having a shopping spree in a candy store. There were these adorable chocolates shaped like tiny bunnies.

2.) Head to the nearest shopping mall and make a beeline to the Disney store. Then proceed to find Winnie the Pooh character stuffed animals and hug them. Oh and Nemo too. But don't buy anything. Then proceed to the nearest Victoria's Secret and wander around until I find the cutest, softest piece of lingerie. Buy it. Come home and try it on. Be amazed at how hot I am and then instantly feel .5% better.

At the rate I'm going, I will have a great collection of lingerie soon. Man, whoever I end up with will be a happy guy. Hahahaha...nevertheless, the new year is coming up quickly and I am starting my mini transformation. Let's see who I end up being for 2009.

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag at least 10 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.

[Side note: I refuse to carry out actions 5&6! Take that!!]

If someone says "Is this ok?" you say?
Butterfly [Corrine Bailey Rae]

How would you describe yourself?
Flat on the Floor [Carrie Underwood]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
I'm right here [Jon B.]

How do you feel today?
Hide and Seek [Imogen Heap]

What is your life’s purpose?
Spin [Life House]

What is your motto?
Big Brother [Kanye West]

What do your friends think of you?
Gone [N Sync]

What do you think of your parents?
Hello- Goodbye [Lupe Fiasco]

What do you think about very often?
Days Go By [Lifehouse]

What is 2 + 2?
Black & Gold [Sam Sparro]

What do you think of your best friend?
Daylight [Kelly Rowland feat. Gym Class Heroes]

What do you think of the person you like?
Save me [Shine Down]

What is your life story?
All I have [J.Lo feat. LL Cool J]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Sooner or Later [Switchfoot]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Story of my life [Frankie J]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Waiting on the world to change [John Mayer]

What will they play at your funeral?
Annabelle [Ken Oak Band]

What is your hobby/interest?
The Fantasy [30 seconds to Mars]

What is your biggest fear?
Daddy's Little Defect [Sugarcult]

What is your biggest secret?
So Good So Right [Bone Thugs-N-Harmony]

What do you think of your friends?
Time [Timbaland feat. She Wants Revenge]

What will you post this as?
Grace Falls [Ken Oak Band]